Tammy Said It Was Time for Me to Do a Photo Essay

“The one thing a creator can bring to the table when everybody else has all the money and power is a centeredness and the ability to walk away. Never sit at a table you can’t walk away from.”
-Joss Whedon as quoted in “Joss Whedon: The EW Interview” by James Hibberd, Entertainment Weekly (August 30, 2013)

But People Judge Us When We Leash Him

Yeah, so I haven’t been blogging. It wasn’t planned. One day I decided to stop, and that’s what I did. Sometimes I’m like that.

I Like to Count the Freckles on Maxwell's Face

I did it thinking that I would blog again sometime, but every day that I’ve thought maybe I’d blog about this thing or the other thing, I’d think, Eh, maybe tomorrow. And the weeks went by.

 King of the Fort

Why?

"Guys! Guys! Come Look at This!"

Fact #1: For a long time, the things that have been most on my mind and important to me are things I either can’t talk about or am not ready to talk about. Sometimes both.

Because That's Helping

Fact #2: While there is a great deal of value in writing and publishing short pieces quickly, and I have learned a lot from doing it all these years, I am realizing that I have other things to learn about writing and other things to say, things that might take me longer to produce. Things that might be a little scary to put out into the world, and so I have to think about them longer, to be sure I’ve said what I really want to be saying–something that maybe matters a little more.

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Fact #3: There are a lot of things I need to think about longer. I need to listen better, too, and pay better attention to a lot of things, like the people I love and time going by so quickly.

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Fact #4: I am ever mindful that I have a lot to learn, like I’ve been learning about how to use this new camera I got a few days ago. I have a life to keep building, and a lot of the time I am busy with that. Something I’ve noticed about the efforts I’ve made to change my life over the last however-many years is that the changes create all these ripples that make my life better in ways I didn’t expect or, often, feel brave enough to hope for.

I Told Him He Could Keep the Stick If He Smiled Pretty for a Picture

Fact #5: I spent a lot of years without hope, and while I’m not even 100% sure what I hope for now, I see the rough edges of beautiful things on the horizon, and I am enjoying working my way toward them. I’m going to keep concentrating on that. For now.

16 Comments

  1. Patty
    Posted September 1, 2013 at 4:54 pm | Permalink

    I think Rough Edges of Beautiful Things should be the title of your first book.

  2. adrienne
    Posted September 1, 2013 at 4:56 pm | Permalink

    That would be a good book title. I’m adding it to the list.

  3. Kerri
    Posted September 1, 2013 at 6:05 pm | Permalink

    I haven’t written in such a long time, myself, and for many of the same reasons as you.
    I miss it.
    Maybe I should do something like this…get some words out. I don’t know what to do with all the things piling up in my head anyway….
    Writing was always a good choice but for some of these very reasons..it has become not a good choice as well.

    But maybe.

  4. adrienne
    Posted September 1, 2013 at 6:09 pm | Permalink

    I’m always glad to read your words, Kerri, but I still get to see your pics and words on Facebook, too, which I’m glad for. (Speaking of which, GO YOU with that half marathon. I’m still trying to get so a 5K doesn’t wipe me out for the rest of the day. I’m getting stronger, though, bit by bit.)

    It felt good to post today, but I’m probably going to revert back to my notebooks for a while, give things some time to percolate.

  5. momster
    Posted September 1, 2013 at 8:47 pm | Permalink

    Tammy was right:)I love the pictures.I think you are surrounded by a plethora of beautiful things:)Creative people have to invent themselves,so good luck with whatever you do!

  6. adrienne
    Posted September 1, 2013 at 9:02 pm | Permalink

    I agree–I am very fortunate in a lot of ways.

  7. Heidi
    Posted September 2, 2013 at 9:46 am | Permalink

    Thank goodness you are back! And a new camera (!!!) what kind did you get? The photos are so lovely, and I’m quite sure in that first one Max is threatening to prosecute leash law violators :-)

  8. tanita
    Posted September 2, 2013 at 5:39 pm | Permalink

    Gosh, I need to be somewhere near that river. How lovely to just wade in and bash around.

    One of the things I value a great deal about the way your mind works is your ability to think through a thing, and articulate it. I think that’s pretty awesome, and I look forward to seeing where else you land…

  9. adrienne
    Posted September 2, 2013 at 7:50 pm | Permalink

    Thanks, Heidi! It’s a Canon PowerShot G15. I don’t know if you’ll see it in the other comments, but my friend Jeffrey (jeffreysphotos.com) recommended it. He knows what’s what with photography.

    Maxwell would be the worst enforcer. He talks a good game, but when it comes down to it, he’d just let all the violators off with a warning.

    Tanita, I love this park. We go to it at least once a summer. It’s just outside the city and not a strenuous hike, but a lovely day and very, very pretty. You can actually climb the waterfalls if you are so inclined. I haven’t done that yet (the water’s COLD), but maybe someday.

    And thank you. I am trying to think through a lot of things right now, and I’m hoping to come to some more articulation. I’m glad you’re staying tuned.

  10. olivia
    Posted September 3, 2013 at 11:06 am | Permalink

    When we went for our walk, I almost asked you about not blogging, but in the end, decided you probably had a reason, and that you’d share it if you wanted to. I’m glad to see you posting again, anyway, whether frequently or infrequently. :)

  11. adrienne
    Posted September 3, 2013 at 11:16 am | Permalink

    We talked about much that day that is on my mind that I can’t write about here, so there’s that. And thanks, for listening and reading.

  12. Vicki
    Posted September 10, 2013 at 5:00 pm | Permalink

    You’re a natural with that Canon! Love the one with Max, the water droplets, and the falls! Makes me want to jump in. It looks refreshing. Your practice is paying off!

  13. adrienne
    Posted September 10, 2013 at 10:18 pm | Permalink

    Thanks! I’m really enjoying playing around with the camera!

  14. Posted September 16, 2013 at 8:42 pm | Permalink

    Thank you for this photo essay, Adrienne. It resonates like a stringed instrument, and calls to me.

  15. adrienne
    Posted September 17, 2013 at 9:33 am | Permalink

    Thanks, Farida!

  16. Posted November 16, 2013 at 6:44 pm | Permalink

    I second her recommendation that you title something Rough Edges of Beautiful Things.

    Christopher Golden has a short story called The Secret Backs of Things. It’s an awesome story and an awesome title, both.

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