“The one thing a creator can bring to the table when everybody else has all the money and power is a centeredness and the ability to walk away. Never sit at a table you can’t walk away from.”
-Joss Whedon as quoted in “Joss Whedon: The EW Interview” by James Hibberd, Entertainment Weekly (August 30, 2013)
Yeah, so I haven’t been blogging. It wasn’t planned. One day I decided to stop, and that’s what I did. Sometimes I’m like that.
I did it thinking that I would blog again sometime, but every day that I’ve thought maybe I’d blog about this thing or the other thing, I’d think, Eh, maybe tomorrow. And the weeks went by.
Fact #1: For a long time, the things that have been most on my mind and important to me are things I either can’t talk about or am not ready to talk about. Sometimes both.
Fact #2: While there is a great deal of value in writing and publishing short pieces quickly, and I have learned a lot from doing it all these years, I am realizing that I have other things to learn about writing and other things to say, things that might take me longer to produce. Things that might be a little scary to put out into the world, and so I have to think about them longer, to be sure I’ve said what I really want to be saying–something that maybe matters a little more.
Fact #3: There are a lot of things I need to think about longer. I need to listen better, too, and pay better attention to a lot of things, like the people I love and time going by so quickly.
Fact #4: I am ever mindful that I have a lot to learn, like I’ve been learning about how to use this new camera I got a few days ago. I have a life to keep building, and a lot of the time I am busy with that. Something I’ve noticed about the efforts I’ve made to change my life over the last however-many years is that the changes create all these ripples that make my life better in ways I didn’t expect or, often, feel brave enough to hope for.
Fact #5: I spent a lot of years without hope, and while I’m not even 100% sure what I hope for now, I see the rough edges of beautiful things on the horizon, and I am enjoying working my way toward them. I’m going to keep concentrating on that. For now.